a girl in the world

finding beauty, pleasure and grace on the road less traveled

March bike ride

March is a magnificent time to be in California. For a few short weeks the Golden State is painted in a rainbow of greens, yellows and pinks. The paths are so beautiful and the air so sweet, you’d think you landed in Eden. I can’t remember the last time I experienced a Spring so gorgeous. I feel so blessed to be here. Anchored and aware.

It helps that I’ve recently taken up cycling as a hobby. It makes everyday travel completely possible in a place like NorCal. So much of my angst over the past five years stems from my desire to wander. After taking a year off from work in 2009, I’ve never completely shaken the desire to be back on the road playing vagabond again. Once you get a taste of ultimate freedom, it’s hard to accept anything less.

Riding around our neighborhood the other day, I came to a realization that so much of my love for travel stems from its ability to inspire in me new ways of seeing the world. When I wander Paris, Rome or Bangkok, I picture myself in the ghost ship of a parallel life, the one I’d be sailing had I made different choices. This mind exercise isn’t melancholic or anxious. If anything, it opens up a part of my psyche that usually lies dormant during the hustle and bustle of daily life. It’s transformative to let yourself imagine what’s possible, to set dreams into motion and visualize a lifestyle completely different from the status quo.

Passing through tree lined neighborhoods flanked by million(s) dollar mansions, I let myself imagine my future kids running around in the front yard, their screams and laughter permeating the street.  I picture family barbecues and summer bonfires and long warm nights sipping wine with friends.  Projecting a domestic family life is a foreign experience for me.  Usually, my daydreams are composed of swank downtown lofts in faraway urban jungles or beachside villas and moonlit dance parties.  Little kids and a barbecue grill have never made it into my wish list, until now.

Travel, even everyday local travel, is a mirror.  It forces us to gauge our real selves against our idealized selves.  It enables us to imagine worlds and lifestyles different from our own.  These days, the daydream of a big front yard full of happy, screaming babies sets my heart abloom.  Tomorrow, it’ll be different.  Tomorrow, it’ll be another destination, another street, another route/trip/adventure. And in turn, another daydream built anew.

If you’re twenty and trying to figure out what to do with your life, please, go travel. If you’re 35, uninspired and wasting your days sitting in a desk somewhere, please, go travel. If you’re 62, accomplished, going on walks every day with your seven year old german shepherd and are wondering what more is left, please, go travel.

There are beaches to roam and forests to hike and carnivals to samba.

This is a side note test.  See how it goes over the edge?

And oh my gosh there is art to be discovered.

Gorgeous, mind blowing, impossible art that will unstitch you in ways that only goosebumps can describe. You will look up and feel a tingling inside you, convinced that the human potential is an unmeasured mystery. And you will wonder, hope, aspire that you too can maybe one day create something just for beauty’s sake. Not because it will bring you wealth, praise or status. But because there is just no other choice.

My recent visit to the Louvre rocked me to the core. I’ve been there several times in the past decade, but this trip was different. Maybe it’s because I’ve seen more of the world. Maybe it’s because I know more of history, politics, the true costs of time and sacrifice. Whatever it was, this visit left me feeling changed. A part of me is still there, roaming the 400,000 square foot limestone palace, fingers grazing stone, eyes wide, mouth ajar in awe. History is literally alive in the Louvre. Not only of empires, kings and gods, but of art. Real art. Art built with hands, bodies, instinct. Sensual and raw.

The Winged Victory of Samothrace is an astonishing work of anonymous genius. It was created in 190 BC (over two thousand years ago) by an unknown artist to celebrate a naval victory for Rhodes. She is Nike, the Greek goddess of victory and she has just landed at the perch of an ancient ship, saluting her navy.

She is breathtaking. Her size (!!). She is marble (!!!). Her robes are wet, blowing in the wind. She is landing like a bird finishing flight, in motion and in stillness, her gaze out at sea. Look at her navel, her hips, her breasts. The angle of her shoulders ajar.

There is so much more that I want to know. Who sculpted her? What of her hair? How did she look perched on a hill where she was originally found? The mystery of her lost head unravels me.

She is haunting.

This is why I travel.

It’s cherry blossom season and I can’t believe these ones are blooming just outside our doorstep. Sometimes the smallest things can make me feel so rich. Thankful for Spring, a season of new beginnings.

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Hi, I'm Denise. I'm a writer, artist and photographer. This is where I share what I'm seeing, learning and making.


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